Monday, October 15, 2007

I don't want to do this.

Get a divorce, that is. Every single cell of my being, every bit of my soul rebels at the notion. I am having a difficult time gaining perspective, of asking how the man who loved me so much could do something that even he was obviously unhappy about. I know that he cried about it, I know that he was unhappy about it, because even though I didn't know exactly what he was filing as I was leaving we spent some time together that day and so I saw the aftermath of it.

I know this isn't exactly a new phenomenon, and that I'm far from the first to do this. But it is a brand new thing to me, & therefore a new pain.

And frankly losing a marriage on top of losing a pregnancy sucks so much it's on its own level, I think.

13 comments:

Matt G said...

Dammit.

I'm so very sorry for you, kiddo.

phlegmfatale said...

I hate to hear that you're going through such a hard time. Bless you.

Mark said...

We're praying for you guys, Remember that if you need an ear I'm always available.

SpeakerTweaker said...

I got here via MattG awhile back, but lost the link somehow or another. I wish I'd gotten back in better times.

I, too, am so sorry to hear of your loss. When it rains, it really does pour.

My thoughts and prayers to you. If there were some way I could help, I would.



tweaker

Strings said...

I feel for you: I have friends going through the "should we get a divorce or not" right now. Having the added blow of the miscarriage just sucks.

If venting to a complete stranger would help, drop me a line at bacastrings@gmail.com

Asphyxiated Emancipation said...

I got here via Matt G.
Much sympathy for you. I'll second what strings said about venting...
Fjolnirsson(removethis)@gmail.com

Brandon said...

I'm very, very sorry that you're having such a rough go of it. You and your little ones will be in my prayers.

knitalot3 said...

So sorry for all the crap you are having to go through right now.

Having been through both (but not at the same time), I know it sucks.

It will get better. Be good to yourself and have faith that things will get better.

I'll be thinking about you.

knitalot3 said...

I couldn't find your email addy to contact you off of your blog. I'll add my offer of correspondence too.

knitalot3@gmail.com
(I do crochet too, I just prefer knitting)

Anonymous said...

I don't know how much comfort it can be coming from a total stranger, but oh, I am so sorry!!! Consoling thoughts and prayers . . .
Lissa

Ambulance Driver said...

Praying for you both that this ends with a minimum of pain, Sabra.

I've been where you are. I know how it feels.

I'm hurting for you right now.

Anonymous said...

I know what you are going through, and you have my prayers.

Memphis Steve said...

I know you don't know me, but I have been teetering on the brink of this for awhile now. I understand how you feel because I have gone back and forth on doing the same. At one point, my wife was served papers at work and thought this is exactly what they were. Turned out to be an order to garnish someone's wages, but it scared her. She was nice for awhile after that, but it didn't last. I'm sorry to hear that you two are going through this. I hope it doesn't happen to me, but I don't know.